Split Personality - Part II

So there is a "situation" in my personal life that is rather comical to me but also causing me stress. I was chatting to my WORK friend Chay about it. (by the way if you are privvy to the "SITUATION" please don't give any specifics when leaving a comment...you never know who reads these things!).

chaY proceeds to tell me the following:

1. If "work D'Nell" were handling this it would be all worked out with a plan by now.
2. I like having power over "outside D'Nell". I can boss her around, but "Work D'Nell" never lets me do that.
3. When "Work D'Nell" leaves work her "Alpha-Female cloak" comes off and she is no longer in charge.

I told him that I don't have a split personality I am the same everywhere. So he sends me this interchange that reminds him of me...

"You have no idea of the magnitude of this thing. If she is allowed to infiltrate this world then George Costanza as you know him ceases to exist. You see, right now I have Relationship George. But there is also Independent George. That's the George you know, the George you grew up with... Movie George, Coffee Shop George, Liar George, Bawdy George."

"I love that George."

"Me too, and he's dying. If Relationship George walks through this door, he will kill Independent George. A George divided against itself cannot stand!"

- SEINFELD: George and Jerry, in "The Pool Guy"

**for some reason CHAY is freaking out about this today***

So, let me pose these questions to you...

a. Do you think I have a "split-personality"?
B. Does everyone have a "SPLIT-personality"?
3. Who wants to throw things at Chay?

PipeLINE.

I wanted to go on a hike. Jamie suggested PiPeline...because it was flat. Which was true. The trail to get to PIPEline...not so much flat as it is STRAIGHT up HILL.

I loved every minute of it. Yes, it was really hard, yes my body was so stiff for 32 hours afterwards, but I loved it. Completing the hike reminded me that I can do HARD things. I CAN do hard things. I just have to have faith and keep moving forward.

This is Jamie and I. She really is a great hiking partner. Great conversation, lots of laughs, and very patient! (Me, not looking super hot.) I look pretty happy because I think the hard part is over. I was wrong, so very wrong.

This was a beautiful part of the trail. It was getting later and the trees covered the trail like a tunnel. Also, this part is pretty darn steep.
Here I am finally on the PIpeLIne trail. It is almost completely flat.
This is from the trail...can you see our cars below? So, I am afraid of heights...and was having flashes of tripping and then falling off the side of the cliff. No worries. I am safe and didn't trip once.

The salt Lake Valley. It was so beautiful! Also, I loved my camel pack! Everyone should get one...seriously.

4th of July

I love the 4th of July.Reason? Fireworks. I love them, I love them, I love them. Oh, and I love all the other festivities.

Nicole, Lisa, and I went to Sugarhouse Park. Watching fireworks there is great! You see funny people/things and the firework show is fun!

This is Nicole and Lisa.
While we waited for the show to start we played a little "Fortune Teller". I think we all got the fortunes we wanted. Well, at least they did. (I know, I know, fortune teller is from junior high, but sometimes it is fun to be silly!)
Then we saw this. A pimped out bike. Yes friends, it is gold and blue and he does have a stereo built into the trailer his is pulling. WOW. I love people, they make me laugh!

Handwriting Follow-Up

The only handwriting I have are in my journals. I read and read, and there isn't a big enough sample that I am willing to share on the blog. Sorry friends.

However, this is my opinion about "Utah Handwriting". Whether it exists or not, I think, in general people don't like to be classified, even in something as insignificant as their handwriting. I want to be an individual and I want to be original. Everyone likes to choose who they are associated with, so if other classify you...it can feel like clothing that is too tight and binding. It feels restrictive.

It seems that if you are a part of our religion you hear of 2 categories: "Utah-something" and then everyone else. So adding handwriting to that list seems like a broken record.

I don't agree or disagree with the Utah handwriting. I haven't ever paid attention.

(((Opinion Poll))) - Handwriting

(((Opinion POLL)))

I received a card today from a friend. She is from Idaho, while looking at her handwriting I was reminded of a "theory" a friend of mine believes. Now I want to put that theory to an opinion POLL.

Theory: Most UTAH girls/women have what he/she calls "UTAH" handwriting. Meaning most females from UTAH have a certain style of handwriting. **I have been accused of having UTAH handwriting, just an FYI**

Opinion Poll:
1. Do you agree with this theory?
2. Basis for the theory?
3. If you agree, then what is "UTAH" handwriting?

**Opinion expressed are safe. Meaning...I will still like you!**

Sluffing

I woke up, went to work.
After 1.5 hours I decided I didn't want to work today.
The sun was shining.
Birds were singing.
So I left work at 11 AM.

I am so happy right now.
This feels like high school when Jessi and I would sluff.
And like that one time...or maybe 12 times...that we would get JODI out of gym class to sluff with us.

Good times, good times!

I Love Summer: Reason's #7, #17, & #36

I love the Summer: Reason #7: Spending time outdoors. Being in NATURE makes me feel closer to the Earth and in turn closer to GOD. (Jamie, I absolutely agree with you on this!) There is just something in the atmosphere of being outside in the evening of Summer. Almost as if the BEST memories will be created, or the feeling that anything can happen. It seems magical.

I love the SuMMer: Reason #17: The Utah Arts Festival. I adore ART and Festivals, so put them together and I am in HEAVEN! The great smells, good food, fun music, AMAZING art, and great friends. Above is Heather, Erin, and I (CERT sisters). Anne refused to be in the picture...but she is great too! Anne actually had free tickets! **The Arts Festival is this weekend...you should go!**

I love the SUMMER: Reason #36: That it stays light soooooo late. I find that I have energy to spare in the summer. I am happier, more hopeful, and feel more alive in the summer. I think it has something to do with seeing the sun more.

**side note: the CERTS have been asked to put in an appearance this SUNDAY in our combined meeting at church. We are calling it "CERT's in SKIRTS"**

Things That Must Go - Annoying Cell Phone Habits

My official list of annoying cell phone habits.

1. Your cell phone ringing in church. Oh my heck! Are you a doctor who is "on-call"? Or some other high priority job that requires you to be seconds away from your phone? If not, leave it at home. 3 HOURS be disconnected from it...I promise you won't die. **If you still can't live without taking it to church. Put it on SILENT and for heaven sake, not many things require you to text during church. I am sure you waiting until church is over won't cause World War III.

2. Scenario: You are out with friends and you answer every call and/or are having a text conversation. Ummm...are we hanging out or do you need to leave? Pick up a call...maybe once...if it is your spouse/mom/911. Reply to a text when everyone goes to the bathroom or maybe twice...other than that and you are bordering on being rude.

3. When we are in Oil Painting class and your phone is ringing (and your ring is a really lame RAP song) and you just sit there and let it go off for 2 minutes and then decide to interrupt everyone else and answer it and talk really loud...other people might be flipping you off. Just so you know. And by the way, we couldn't hear Toni talking because you were practically screaming.

4. Work: Have your cell phone. Answer as many calls as you would like when you are working at your desk. Text. I do it. However, if you ring is so loud and you are 4 desks away and I can't hear the person on the phone then maybe you should keep it on VIBRATE. The rest of us do. Also, it is kind of annoying when you are in a meeting and you leave your phone at your desk and it keeps ringing and ringing and ringing. STOP IT. Oh, one other thing. Don't get annoyed when we tease you...it could be worse, we could hide your phone.

I am sure there are more, but those are the ones that drive me nuts lately!

**umm...I know I have been guilty of one or more of these. I hereby will amend my ways. B. I leave my cell phone at home a lot...because of the above behaviors. ***

Worst 30 Minutes EVER

I went.
It was yucky.
But over relatively quickly, and really not as horrible as I imagined.
Almost started to cry.
Not one tear was shed.
I know it was important and it needed to be done.

DON'T want to go back, EVER.
But will.
But it might be in another 30 years...
Just kidding.
Maybe...

Ashley, Thanks for motivating me to do it.

Split Personality

Sometimes I wish my skills with my job would come home with me.

WORK: I am really great at communicating in an effective appropriate manner at work. I am able to express opinions and be assertive and make the situation a "win - win". I am not afraid of confrontation. Hardly ever get nervous in highly "tense" situations. I am not afraid of pushing back and making sure the appropriate things are said and happening. I stand up for what is correct and right.

PERSONAL LIFE: Complete and utter mess (at least that's how it feels). I am scared of any kind of confrontation. I have a hard time expressing my opinion and being assertive. Any type of communication where there is a hint of maybe it won't go well...I get so nervous! Sarcastic remarks often slip in...not good at all! I don't always stand up for what is correct and right...and that really bothers me.

Does anyone else feel like this sometimes? That they can do something in one area of their life, but not in others? Am I crazy?