Tomorrow, January 22nd will be my 1 year anniversary with my current employer Intermountain Healthcare. I really like it there and am excited with what I hope to be the first of many milestones. However, tomorrow also means that I only have 2 months left in my 20's...and this fact makes me want to cry.
Why is turning 30 such a big deal to me? Why do I feel like I haven't accomplished enough? Why do I feel like if I turn 30 I will automatically be a failure? Weird. One reason maybe that I have this voice in the back of my head telling me that if I don't have my first child by 30 then the risk to me and my future children increases significantly. What rat face would tell a single woman that on a repeated basis? Even in jest? (I can give you a name if you are really interested.) This thought literally seeps in every time I think of being 30 and I want to cry.
In reality, I am not a failure, I have accomplished a lot, and turning 30 is just a beginning to a new decade of amazing life experiences. As for the having children after 30 comment...well Ardell had me at 46 and I am freakin' amazing and so is she.
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You ARE freakin' amazing. I hope I am half as amazing as you when I turn 30!(in 5 short months) I think 30 is hard, but we should embrace it, enjoy it, cherish it because now we know how fast 40 will come!!!
I recall someone once saying "Thirty, flirty and Thirving!" That someone was you! I turned 30 about 2 months ago and am living up what you said! It is not so bad (I actually haven't even noticed a difference)!
I agree. You are freakin' amazing. I have similar feelings about 30. I have to watch myself when I compare myself to other people (when my mom was my age she had 4 kids.... a girl 5 years younger than me has 3 kids... etc). Then I have to stop myself and realize that this life is not a timed race. I am not behind or ahead of anyone else. I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be so I should have fun with it. Let me know how 30 is. I'm 29 days behind you!
DNEll, I want to know who this rat face is and than give them a piece of my mind...that is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard! You are absolutely amazing and shouldn't be afraid to embrace 30...you are a rock star! And anyways, haven't you heard? Thirty is the new twenty...live it up sweet heart, you rock!
Thirty can be amazing if you choose to make it such. I have a feeling BIG things are in your future. As for the thirty comment...it is true. Not having your first child prior to thirty does increase risks for both you and the child. That facts does not place any limits, nonetheless it is a fact. Whoever told you this I am sure was merely addressing a fact, possibly even trying to encourage you in some way to get out in the dating world, find the man of your dreams, honeymoon on one of the private islands he owns, and start making a family of 13. THIRTY...BRING IT ON.
Why is it that we sometimes feel like life is a RACE? Weird. You guys are great!
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