Which way?Right? Left? Straight?
Uh oh! Wrong way!
Flip a U turn...
Crap! Now I am Lost!
Sometimes I think there is too much choice. I have too many options and I get overwhelmed. I wish I could see the end...then I would be able to make decisions better. It is no use, all I can do is aim for my current goals and head down that road until I reach them or I get a ROAD CLOSED sign.
2 Decisions were made recently: One very personal and one kind of exciting!
1. I am nervous. I set a deadline today. I should have set this deadline much sooner. I would have avoided a lot of sleepless nights. This deadline involves me taking action if something doesn't happen. I am nervous and scared, but I feel good about the decision and deadline, but that doesn't make the nervous feeling go away. This is a personal road I am going down that isn't appropriate to share on such a public site...but I wanted to share this milestone...I feel strong. October 1st...that's the deadline. WOW. Keep your fingers crossed that I am strong enough to follow through. Just to clarify...I don't want to take the action...let's hope something happens before October 1st.
2. I can't believe that I am doing this. It seems so grown up. It means more debt. JUNKY. I am taking the GMAT before the end of the year, and applying to MBA school. I hope to go next fall. If I can find a program that starts in January then I will try to get accepted late to that program. In a way, I am excited to increase my education and open many career options, but I am nervous about going back to school. Am I really ready to dedicate so much of my time to school? Am I smart enough? Sure college seemed like a breeze...but this is the MAJOR leagues. What if I fail? What if I don't pass the GMAT? I am not sure I am ready to be "College D'Nell" again. She was less spontaneous and more structured...and...maybe...just maybe not as fun. Okay, the fun thing has to be a lie, I am always fun. MORE DEBT! I am definitely not ready for that. Bring on the challenge. I can do this.
Are decisions always this hard? Does everyone take as long as me to decide? Weighing out all options and the second guessing yourself? And then when the decision is made...is it bad that I still sometimes have doubts?
5 comments:
What I think is great is that you are so thoughtful about your life and the decisions that go along with it. Everything you are feeling is perfectly normal and to be expected. I hope all turns out for the best!
An MBA? You can do it! You are a domestic hero who is SMART.
DNell, you are my hero! I know that you will do great with the GMAT and at grad school! You are such an amazing person! You can talk to Ty when you come to visit about the GMAT, he is taking it this weekend...he has been studying for what feels like forever! Keep us posted!
I love all of your posts...except I never know exactly what is going on in your life. I wish we talked more. I hope all goings well with your decisions!
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